She’s running. Running away from the hurt. The hurt that just keeps getting thrown in her face and can’t seem to go away.
She keeps asking God why? Why is this life so hard? Why am I here?
Life can be a restless game, and the only way to keep going is to win. But how can we win a game that seems to have an unattainable goal?
For the longest time she lived in this scary world, and didn’t let it bother her. For the longest time she never cried, always kept a brave face on and acted undefeated. Now, she lets salty tears stream carelessly down her face, as she just keeps running.
All her life she was so sure things would get better. That maybe the tear she felt in her heart would be mended. The emptiness that she felt in her soul would be filled. The cold that seemed to envelope her would be melted away by warmth.
She felt lonely. It’s all she felt. And for the first time in her life she couldn’t bare it. She hated it. She wanted more- more than just the hollow feeling that could be filled only temporarily. She wanted an everlasting sufficiency that would fill her up completely.
Getting to the end of the road she let’s her knees hit the pavement crying out, God, help me.
That feeling of emptiness inside of her tugs at her heart, and she continues to cry out, God, I can’t do this on my own. I need you. I need you to hold me.
Without God we have nothing. Without God we are lonely. We are lost. Without God, that tear in our hearts can’t be mended. We can’t be put back together. We can’t go on in life alone- without God.
He is what sustains us. He is what keeps us whole. Without Him we are nothing at all- nothing at all.
She cries out, God, hold me! God, sustain me! Don’t leave me. Love me. I am yours, Lord.
What do we claim to be without God? How do we live without God? We can’t. Alone, we live in a darkness that is so strong we get lost and can’t find our way back home. But with God, we have a light that can outshine the blackness that surrounds us. Alone, we are weak but with God, we are armored with strength.
We must trust Him. Surrender our lives to Him. In doing so He will lift us back on our feet. Direct our paths and point us in the right direction. He will hold you. Carry you in His arms.
Accept His grace. Let His love surround you. Let His peace flood your soul. Let His light encompass you. Let Him hold you.