Reflection

Reflection

            I entered my room and slammed the door behind me. I had a rough day at school. I thought I fit in, but apparently not. I thought I looked pretty, but I guess I’m not good enough for everyone else.  What does it matter anyway? I’m just the girl who sits in the back of the classroom, alone. Nobody pays any attention to me, so why should I even bother trying to prove myself good enough for those kids? If they don’t like me as I am, then I shouldn’t have anything to do with them. Yet, my heart longs to.

            I walk over to the full-length mirror hung on the wall.   I see a girl. A girl of the age fourteen, her auburn hair in a messy bun, her sea green eyes on the verge of tears. I know she’s asked God so many times in her life why can’t she be excepted? Must she put on a mask and be someone nothing like herself to fit in? To be excepted by her peers? Or was fitting in or being excepted by the world around her even that important? No. She knew it wasn’t.

That girl in the mirror, that girl is who I am. That’s my reflection. When will my reflection show who I am inside? It doesn’t matter about the outside. I guess I try too hard to be different, to be nothing like my normal self. I try so hard to be like other people in my society I am ignoring who God is calling me to be. He wants me to be who he intended me to be. He wants me to be myself. No matter how hard I try I’ll never be able to be somebody else. I can put on all of the makeup, I can dress the way they dress, I can talk and act like them, but I could never be someone other then me. Myself. I need to be who God has called me to be.

I need to put aside all thoughts I ever had of how to fit in, or how I can be excepted. For I already am, by God. By my creator and my Savior. The one who made the stars. The one who already has my life planned out. The one who guides my every step. Now, it’s my choice as to whether or not I am going to listen and except his guidance and instruction. I say yes. Yes, I’ll listen to You, God.

I don’t need the world and the things and the people in it to make me feel happy, or excepted. I need you, God. For you love me just as I am. I don’t need to be like anyone else but me. That girl in the mirror, she’s just my reflection. Not who I am inside.

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I wrote this a little while ago.  It kind of reflects on the post I did a little bit ago, Verse of the Week, 1/3/17.  It was on the verse Proverbs 31:30.  I feel that in this day and age, in society so many girls (and guys alike) feel the need to have to fit in.  As long as they’re looking cool and hanging with the “in” crowd it’s all good.  But no, it’s not.  Who cares about fitting in or being excepted by the people around us, when we’re already excepted by God?  As the quote goes, “I would rather stand with God and be judged by the world, then stand with the world and be judged by God”(Unknown).  Like I’ve said before, it’s all about the heart.  Make sure you’re right with God before anything else. He’s the real judge.

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Good Enough

We try so hard to fit in.

We give up so much to be accepted. We surrender our purity, our confidence, our joy, our morals, our identity, the very core of who we are. We erase our faces, physical and spiritual, to draw a facade that matches theirs. We force our hearts to beat a certain rhythm, our feet to move a certain way, our lips to spill certain words, and our bodies to fall into the line which they’re all following, a line which leads to a horrible darkness shrouded by fake smiles. We sacrifice all that is good and holy and beautiful in ourselves, all that we have been blessed with, an identity worth more than anything this world can give.

Beautiful, you were not created to blend with the crowd. You were not created to live up to their expectations, to strive to fit the mold they demand for you, to live a life blinded of the loving Father and Savior who died for you.

You know that burden society presses upon your shoulders? Don’t pretend you haven’t tried to meet it before. We all have, at some point in our lives.

All of us have been tempted to believe the lies:

You must be pretty enough. You must be smart enough. You must act like this, talk like this, walk like this. You must do this, be that. You must be accepted. You must be good enough.

But the haunting whisper always follows:

You have failed. You will never fit in. You will never be good enough.

These lies push us to shame. They leave us in the dirt, confused, shattered, and having lost sight of our identity. There is the lingering question: Do I have any purpose at all?

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My friend, I cannot measure your purpose. I cannot even begin to express the enormity of the life in store for you. You cannot even dream of the plans He has for you. There is so much goodness, so much accomplishment, so much joy that your mind cannot begin to fathom it.

Guess what? You can live that life. You can discover your true purpose, behold the unbelievable plan He has for you. You don’t have to try to meet society’s impossible expectations. You don’t have to sacrifice all that you are, strip away your identity and your true beauty, in order to be another face in a crowd. You don’t have to wear a fake smile.

Instead, you can trade it for a real one.

You are good enough. Darling, you are more than simply “good enough.” Why? Because you have been created by the Creator of every ounce of beauty, of magnificence, of brilliance, in the entire universe. You have been created by the Creator of the mountains, of the sky, of the ground, of every living thing and every mystery even science has yet to understand. You have been created by the hands which cradle the stars, the hands which bled for you.

The face you see when you look in the mirror? The face behind layers of makeup you may hide it behind? There is absolutely nothing wrong with that face. There is nothing wrong with those features, no matter what the world tells you. There is a reason behind everything God does, and God does not make mistakes.

This is what makes you beautiful. Society has such a twisted definition of “beautiful,” and you are not to believe it. Beautiful is not just a word, not a social label. Beautiful is what we all are, beneath our masks. Beautiful is you. Beautiful is what society calls your “flaws.” Beautiful is the face you should have no shame to hide.

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You know, people like to tap you on the shoulder and brightly reassure you, “How you look on the outside doesn’t matter! The inside is what’s truly beautiful!”

Only the outside actually does matter, just not how society claims it should. It matters because God created your outside to appear exactly the way it does. Please, do not believe you are “ugly.” Don’t even joke about it. You are unique, sculpted by the King to be just who you are.

However, the inside is what matters most. It takes a beautiful person on the inside to recognize that they are a beautiful person on the outside, and not just that but why they are a beautiful person on the outside. A beautiful person on the inside is a person who has given their life to Jesus, a person who has sacrificed their fleshly desires to live the spectacular life in store for them. A heart that has been given to Jesus transforms you from the inside out, leading you to live that life. 

Yes, Jesus does tell us over and over that there will be suffering involved in this life. There will be sacrifice. There will be pain. Despite this, Jesus promises that He will never leave us. His joy, His peace, and His love are always right there beside us, even in the worst of tribulation. This tribulation is not eternal, but will someday end, and when it does there will be an ultimate reward in store for us.

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You, my sister, are beautiful. You are loved. You have a purpose.

You are not alone, and you are worth it.

Please, do not believe the lies pressured upon you. Instead, turn to your Savior. His arms are always open for you. You don’t have to be “good enough,” because you are so much more than that.

See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not yet been made known. But we know that when Christ appears, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is.”

1 John 3:1-2

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You’re Gold

Megan stared blandly at herself in the mirror. She fingered the freshly clipped ends of her hair and sighed. All of a sudden, she wished she hadn’t cut her hair so short. 

Her clothes weren’t in style, in the words of her “friends”, and the color of her hair was too brown. At least her “friends” said so. But they weren’t really friends, anyway.

I’m not beautiful, Megan thought. I never have been and never will be.

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I’m sure that all of us have felt like this at some point in our lives.

You’ve had “those thoughts” in your head before. You’ve felt like you’re worth nothing, not loved, but overall, not beautiful.

But, you are.

You’re the most beautiful person in the world, in His eyes. In His eyes, you’re a Princess; you just need a little rescuing from the pit of despair first.

In His eyes, you’re Gold.

No.

You’re more than Gold. 

You’re the most precious gem in the ocean. All of us are.

So, whenever you feel like you’re not beautiful in the eyes of sinful, imperfect men, just remember that to the most perfect person to ever walk this earth; who lives up in HEAVEN, you’re beautiful.

And isn’t that a lot better than having the sinful people of the world judge you – including yourself?

Never think that you’re not beautiful. Because you are, have been, and always will be; on the inside, and out.

anika

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